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Suddenly Alive.

Anberlin as long been one of my favorite bands.  A huge reason I enjoy their music so much is the song writing of Stephen Christian.  On every album since 2003, there were songs that really reached me where I was at.  I’ve always felt that Stephen was writing songs about me, not uncommon to hear from committed fans.

Music has been my escape in times of darkness, and there has been lots of darkness over the years.  Presently, I’m standing on the other side of a 2-3 month dark period that I really saw no way out of.  Hope was dim and rescue seemed a far gone dream…I was scared.  But, through much help and love; I’m here, still alive.  It’s been a process of healing and I know the process is far from over. Thanks to the healing power of music, I can sit and look back at where I was and be so happy with where I am and where I’m going.

If you had asked me 3 weeks ago if I would be able to look back with this perspective and joy, I would have thought you were crazy.  This song off 2008’s New Surrender speaks directly to the emotions of joy and gratitude I’m experiencing as I am pulled out of the darkness by those around me.

“I can finally breathe.
Suddenly alive.
I can finally move.
The world feels revived”.

This is a beautiful song, with a beautiful message that I can personally relate to.  I do feel “suddenly alive” and it’s breathe-taking.  Life really had been passing me by these past few months, and I had no idea.  I lost a lot thanks to those months, but I also gained so much in return.   My world does feel revived and I can’t wait to see what lies ahead.  There is a light at the end of the tunnel.  I couldn’t see it for the longest time but it’s finally getting brighter. I know I’m not there yet, but I’m finally willing and able to walk it out.